"Oh, nostalgia. I don't need you anymore."

{ Tuesday, December 28, 2010 }
Alright, I'll admit I'm a bit bored, up alone, and have run out of books to read. I've completely blazed through my entire book collection during winter break, and it is only halfway over! A fellow blogger posted a list of random questions that other bloggers can post on their page to give readers a little insight into their lives. Enjoyable, right? It reminds me a little of those pesky Myspace "surveys" from back in the day, but not as irrelevant. If you feel inclined to do so, play along and answer the questions on your own blog!
Disclaimer: The questions are geared towards ladies- sorry fellas!

1. What color do you wear the most? Black. It's an easy go-to color, although a little drab at times. I spice it up with scarves, so it works.

2. Do you have a weird, quirky or unusual habit? You see, I have this little habit called the "nervous dance"...I tend to break it out when I simply don't know what to do with myself in an awkward situation. It's a nice mixture of a flamenco dance and an Irish jig. I need to break myself of it.

3. What was the first blog you ever read? Lookbook.nu, if that counts as a blog. It is street style heaven. I can't get enough!

4. Do you collect anything? Yes, I collect Stephen King books! I'd love to add a couple of first edition printings to my collection, however, so I will be on the constant lookout for those.

5. How old were you when you had your first kiss? I was...12. The whole ordeal was pretty unfortunate and unabashedly cliche.

6. Favorite magazine? My favorite magazine publication at the moment is Nylon. It satisfies my fashion, film, and musical fixations. I'm also really into National Geographic. It's interesting and makes me want to travel the world.

7. Bra style...lacy or plain? That certainly depends on the situation. Sometimes I'll throw on something lacy if I'm feeling optimistic about a test at school or simply having a good day. An "undercover celebration" of sorts. Haha!

8. If you walked into Victoria's Secret..would you most likely come out with something sexy or comfy? I'd leave with a nice combination of both, actually. Something playful yet practical- me in a nutshell.

9. What's your favorite body part on a man? Eyes! They say a lot about a guy's character. But I suppose eyes are more of a feature, so my favorite "part" would be legs. Strange, I know, but who doesn't love a guy's legs in a pair of great fitting jeans? Also, if a guy has the legendary "V" cut marks in his lower abs...that isn't too shabby either.

10. Middle name? Cathryn.
11. Any romantic interest(s) at the moment? Yes, but only one interest, and they are blissfully unaware of it all. Maybe one day I'll get the gumption to lay it all down on the line. Does that even count? No, probably not. Gosh.

12. What do you think is your best asset (physical)? Hm, my legs are alright! They're nice and long, but difficult to buy pants for. Oh, what gives. Let's just all run around pants-less.

13. If you could only eat one type of cuisine for a year, what would it be (Mexican, American,Chinese..etc.)? Japanese! Sushi for breakfast, lunch, and dinner? It simply wouldn't be a problem with me.

14. Favorite state besides the one you live in? Seeing as I really haven't had a chance to venture beyond the Southeast, my default answer is New York. I know I'll fall in love with the state when I finally do get the chance to visit.

15. Beer or wine? Neither! Beer makes me feel so manly, as if I'm another "bro," haha! Wine makes me feel worldly and too old.

If you are curious as to where the title of this blog originated, check out new music from former Fall Out Boy vocalist, Patrick Stump! Although I still periodically grieve the disbanding of my favorite group of musicians, Stump's solo project is sure to succeed. Below is his new track, "Spotlight (New Regrets)." Happy listening!

In celebration of my 20th Christmas...

{ Saturday, December 25, 2010 }
I know, I'm staying up ridiculously late and Santa is probably going to skip over my house. However, I feel like posting a few festive images that give me reason to smile a little more about Christmas. Hopefully they'll make you smile too- enjoy!

Above is my all time favorite clip from A Christmas Story. I don't know what it is about the little goggled freak child, but I nearly die of laughter every time!

Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good night!


Out with the old, in with the gold: New year's resolutions

{ Thursday, December 23, 2010 }
The finality of this year is hard to swallow, yet the end is impending- and fast. Every year I set lofty resolutions for myself, and often stick to a handful of them. I truly believe 2011 is going to be a magical and rewarding year, seeing as I'm a firm believer in consistent 11:11 p.m. wishes, and the number 11 is generally cool in my book. Publicly posting my resolutions for the year to come will (hopefully) motivate me to accomplish everything my heart desires, and then some. Some are silly, some are serious, and some are downright ridiculous. However, I am set on making this a memorable and successful future 365 day adventure.
1.) Say "yes" significantly more than "no." Sure, I'm not going to turn into a regular Jim Carrey "Yes Man," but when you think about it, it is much easier to say no than yes out of laziness. Whether it be a impromptu drive around town, an invite, or a potentially awkward date, I'm going to start saying "yes" rather than my usual "no."

2.) Stop getting my heart set on anything, in general. I've always had a problem getting my heart and mind set on something, only to have things not work out in my favor. Not only is it an extreme waste of time and energy, but it is simply no fun! I will no longer sit around waiting for an all-too-oblivious guy to notice how much I care, nor will I be completely crushed if future travel plans don't work out. Sometimes the best things are unpredictable and uncertain. We move on.

3.) Focus on my grades and my future career. Although my friends already taunt me for being too obsessed and consumed with my future plans, I believe you have to prepare for success at a considerably young age. I aim to get a few more editorial internships under my belt in 2011, while attempting to maintain a high GPA. Mediocrity isn't an option. (Hey, Economics and Statistics- you better not ruin this for me!)

4.) Write at least 1,000 words per week. I think regular writing serves as a healthy cleanse of the mind, as well as a wonderful creative outlet. Writing is my natural response to sadness, happiness, and everything in between. Whether through personal journal entries, blog posts, or poems, I aim to pen at least a thousand words each and every week of the upcoming year.

5.) On the same note...read one book per week. According to my lifelong writing inspiration, Stephen King, good writers are even better readers. Thankfully, I believe I own enough of his works to last me through the year and beyond!

6.) For the love of God, stop falling for your "type," Lindsay. Indeed, I have heard this exact expression many times from my wonderful and completely lovable suite mates! Their second favorite expression? "You're always into guys who look like they could possibly be gay. Just saying." C'mon, guys! Harsh.

7.) Purchase more thrift store clothing than retail clothing. I've always been a huge fan of secondhand and thrifted clothing- it's so unique and fun to wear, not to mention economical. Some of the most interesting finds are waiting in Goodwill, all priced under $5, of course.

I'm ready for you, 2011. This year has truly been the most tumultuous and rewarding of my life. 2010 dealt me a variety of cards, both good and bad. Living at home while my friends experienced freshman year away, achieving more in the writing department than I ever expected, ending a two-and-a-half year relationship, meeting some of the most incredible people at GCSU, my mom's courageous recovery, and a phone call with the president. If you had asked me a year ago if I thought any of these things would've happened, I would've called you crazy. These events all happened for a reason, whether I would like to believe that or not. I'm stronger- much stronger.


Hard Candy

{ Tuesday, December 21, 2010 }
Last night I decided to revisit one of my favorite psychologically thrilling films of 2005, Hard Candy. Having not viewed the movie in over a year, I wasn't quite prepared for the intense scenes and impeccable cinematography.
Directed by David Slade, Hard Candy depicts the interactions between 14-year old Hayley and 32-year old photographer Jeff, who meet through an online chat room and make the fateful decision to meet in person.
Contrary to popular belief, Hard Candy proves that it isn't always the lonely, 30-something man who is a predator in disguise.
Ellen Page (Hayley) puts on an extraordinary and haunting performance for her age. In my opinion, one much stronger than in both 2007's Juno and 2010's Inception.
Hard Candy certainly isn't for the faint of heart. With its twisted plot, dramatic foreshadowing and overpowering emotion, this film is not one that will be forgotten after viewing.
Check out the preview below of this highly underrated film, plus a few screenshots to enjoy!

Reflection, green tea, and My Sassy Girl

{ Tuesday, December 14, 2010 }
My winter break is becoming as a seamless haze of sleep-filled days, reading for hours on end, and watching films new and old alike. Ah, the freedom of a month-long life hiatus!
Yesterday I ventured away from my all too cozy room to shop with my best friend, Carrie.
I wound up coming home with an early Christmas present to myself- a new journal.
For some odd reason beyond my comprehension, I'm extremely particular when it comes to journals. For starters, they must be modest in size, leather, and have a stitched binding. A spiral bound journal feels so elementary to me, like I'm about to start an entry with "Dear diary..." and gush about a boy I like. The journal must also contain lined pages, which help in keeping my thoughts organized and orderly. Last night I spent two hours writing and woke up feeling rejuvenated and brand new. I find it magical how such a simple outlet of expression can detox the mind and soul.
This morning I woke up, brewed my standard hot green tea, and sat down to watch one of my favorite films of all time, My Sassy Girl. Although I am not one for "chick flicks," this movie doesn't necessarily fall into that category. For one, it depicts love from the perspective of a guy, which I find refreshing and interesting. All too often we are subjected to viewing love from the eyes of a girl who is overly-emotional, delusional and embarrassingly shallow. My Sassy Girl offers viewers an intimate peek into an unconventional relationship, which is exhilarating and heartbreaking all at once. My Sassy Girl happens to be an American adaptation of a Korean film under the same name- pretty interesting, huh?
I feel as though the more I watch these films, the more my perceptions of romance become overtly hopeful and distorted. It makes me wonder if we are all just hopeless romantics, aimlessly floating in shallow waters, helpless and problematic, shouting a desperate S.O.S at the top of our lungs just to be grasped. Maybe one day I'll know.
However, one thing I do know for certain is that this is the best scene of the entire film! The day I play the slap game will be a great day.

Happy viewing,


My sleep cycle is in complete disarray, yet one line keeps coming to mind:

{ Saturday, December 11, 2010 }

Your eyes are blocking my starlight
I'm the last of my kind
And that's all that should matter to you.

Writing for the Mass Media final spread: complete!

{ Wednesday, December 8, 2010 }

It was a somber morning as I left my Writing for the Mass Media class for the final time. I never thought I would ever become attached to a class (let alone one at such an early time- 8 a.m.!), but alas, I did. Above is my magazine spread covering vegetarianism, which was my final assignment for the class. Luckily, I'm taking Publication Layout and Design next semester, so I'll get to try my hand at page design even more.
I feel rather trite and boring talking about school on my blog constantly, but it is honestly consuming my life at the moment. However, I'm hanging onto the the fact that I will be home in less than 48 hours! Oh Peachtree City, how I've missed you and all of your suburban delight.
On a final side note, I love how my best friend, Carrie, can lighten the mood of even the most serious Facebook conversations.



Musical nostalgia, Say Anything

{ Monday, December 6, 2010 }
This isn't much of a post, but I cannot tear my ears away from Say Anything this evening. It is amazing how you can refrain from listening to a band for three years and immediately feel at home after returning to them.
"A Walk Through Hell" has always been my favorite, composed of lyrics that are bare and honest.
Take a listen, and ask yourself: What risks would you take to capture the heart of another?


"You can live with me in this house I've built out of writer's blocks"

{ Sunday, December 5, 2010 }
After an entire day full of interviewing, writing, graphic designing, and revising, my writing final project is nearly complete! Being in the wake of finals week is one of the most exhausting yet exhilarating times of the semester. I proudly pulled my first all-nighter last night, and I'm heading in a similar direction this evening. I cannot complain, however, because I'm a natural night owl and my most creative work comes at night!
It's astounding that this semester is coming to a close in five days. I transferred to this college with a twinge of uncertainty within myself, yet the past four months have been the most amazing I've ever experienced.
The beautiful month-long break is just beyond my grasp.
I long to spend an entire day in nature, writing.
I want to get in the car and drive aimlessly until I find beautiful scenery to photograph.
I hope to spend hours on end with my best friends, who I've missed so dearly.
This evening has been a particularly introspective one, although I typically avoid sitting around and reflecting on myself and my life for fear of appearing self-centered.
After reflecting for quite some time, I've come to the conclusion that there are two distinct sides of me, yet they haven't welded together properly.
On one hand, I'm lively, silly, witty and eccentric. I aim to make my friends laugh and feel comfortable within their own skin while they're around me. I love performing uncoordinated dances to awful techno music just for the pure joy of it.
Alternatively, I'm a pensive writing aficionado who could undoubtedly spend an entire day with a pen in my hand, could be perfectly content reading Stephen King all day, could fully appreciate an art film, and is-oh, as horribly cliche and adolescent as it sounds- misunderstood.
It's odd, feeling so multidimensional.
I anxiously await the moment when someone fully gets me, all of me. I know it will happen, and I will feel it in my bones.
Until that time, I'll continue on my merry way, making the most out of each day and laughing at every opportunity I'm offered!
To be honest, this is the most personal post I've ever written. Shall we lighten it up with a selection of, ahem, graphic inspiration? Of course.

Finals week, I am coming for you.


"Well, it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write kind of turn themselves into knives"

{ Wednesday, December 1, 2010 }

My day has been consumed by astronomical amounts of writing and reading- and I'm happy with that. With this semester coming to a close in less than two weeks, finals are right around the corner.
Although the majority of my peers are stressed over impending deadlines and tests, I'm most anxious about being accepted into my Journalism major. After hours of tweaking and revising my resume and fighting with myself over double concentrating in Advertising, I finally submitted my application for review yesterday morning! The thought of being rejected after all of the hard work I've done absolutely chills me to the bone. I've had my mind set on making a living as a writer since I was eight years old, and the mere thought of a change in career plans seems ludicrous. My hand behind a pen is the most innate, organic feeling I know.
Even though the future feels uncertain at the moment, there are a few things I have observed this week that are undoubtedly true.
Shall we?:

1.) Every fortune cookie I open somehow alludes to me living in New York City. Sure, I may be reading into things and conjuring a little false hope, but you never know!
2.) Reading the AP Stylebook just for kicks can be fun and informative. I know, I know- you're judging me for that one.
3.) There is nothing more seductive than a man bundled up in a pea coat with a dapper scarf. Trust me on this one, mmm.
4.) On that same note, there is nothing more attractive than an intelligent man. I will forever fall hopelessly for them.
5.) The Lion King will forever reign as one of the greatest movies of all time. Any film that has the power to draw such strong emotions from me time after time is a classic.

This is an obnoxious rant of a blog post, but the pent up words inside of me had to be released. Now I have to do serious work on a magazine spread focusing on vegetarianism for my Writing for the Mass Media class. Awesome final project!